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|Friday, January 13th, 2012|
anyone use this thing anymore? thinking about starting again since i have so much free time on my hands lately. Current Mood: awake
|Friday, December 29th, 2006|
my bosy keeps yelling at me to rest. i just don't want to stop moving. i should stay in tonight, but i only have one more thursday night before i have to work them.
starting in a few weeks, you should all come in to the half door on thursday nights to drink imported beers and visit me :)
i think i need to stay in, snuggle w/ vomit, watch snatch, and relax tonight. i honestly don't think i have the energy for much else.
|Tuesday, December 26th, 2006|
|so this is christmas...
did the not quite family thing, then the half door thing.
sometimes your body just wants to take control no matter what the consequence... but you keep yourself in check, for everyone's good. but you doln't feel any more fulfilled...
i don't think what i'm looking for exists in this place, in this time...
in other news, we found a puppy wandering... so cute... it's a wiener dog. we're gonna put up posters, there are none that we have seen in search for it yet. sooo cute...
...stop shaking... Current Mood: anxious
|Sunday, December 24th, 2006|
|it's the most craptastic time of the year
cranky rude people pushing around in the maul that you can't avoid. 89276523 gifts that still need to be wrappped. awful music played over and over and over and over. sonsumerism and greed at their 'finest'. it's not even pretty with snow, but my room is freezing. *sigh* i can't wait til it's over. only a few more days!
then comes the problem of new years. i dunno what to do/where to go.. i don't have anyone 'special' to share it with, which is fine except when i do, they usually want to go somewhere in particular for the new year, therefore i don't have to worry about it. well, i probably won't do less that last year.. ha. that was sad. Current Mood: brrrrrful, very brrrrfull
|Friday, December 22nd, 2006|
|here i am again on my own...
so i finally got my computer up and running. havnt been on this thing in quite some time. been able to use my phone to keep up on myspace, but not LJ. don't know if i should keep this journal going or not. w/ the myspace blog i'mve just been writing sporatically, not like i used to do on here. what do you think? should i keep this LJ going? and how are you anyway? drop me a line. Current Mood: cold
|Thursday, March 23rd, 2006|
so, havn't updated since halloween.
i'm still alive, my computer is just broken and my sidekick won't let m e log into LJ for some reason. i duno, i use my myspace on a semi/kind of/not really regular basis. but it's easier to keep up w/ me on there for now (http:www.myspace.com/lunutchick)
so what's changed? welp, other than the year... i have a different job now. i'm serving @ macaroni grill in manchester. it's not bad, just really different than ac petersen's, which is ok, and it's better money, so can't go wrong w/ that...
i'm still saving to get the fuck outta my house and outta CT, but i had the opportunioty to go to england, and i'm here in the UK. total 10day trip, come back on saturday. it's been awesome so far, :) i wish i could come back, but there won't be money for that for quite some time, i'm completely amazed that it was able to happen this time around.
life in general has been ok. not what i want, but not awful. i work 6 nights a week, and several lunch shifts as well, my boss is a crazy woman who constantly sounds like she hates everyone and everything, which feels odd, but it's just the way she is. i don't really have time for a social life. most of my friends play a much smaller role in my life than they used to, and those that had small roles to begin with, because of distance or w/e else, play little to no role in my day to day life other than in my thoughts, which saddens me. it is however a necessary evil, and the only way i can actually make any money to get me closer to where i want to be is to work all the time. as far as the love life goes? it doesn't. which is fine by me. i don't want a signifigant other, too much confusion, hassle, and hurt. unfortunately i'm constantly going through withdrawl because of lack of snuggles, but i do manage to get in some spooning here and there to tide me over.
my precious kitty vomit is the light in my life, i don't know what i'd do w/out her. she's @ marie's house now while i'm accross the pond, and i miss her so! i can't wait to pick her up and squeeze her, and play w/ her wonderful self when i get back.
so i guess that's all for now. if you want to catch up w/ me drop me a line on myspace or email me since i can't access this LJ unless i'm on someone else's computer (until dana fixes mine). i hope all is well for all of you out in livejournal land. until next time~
~cheers Current Mood: geeky
|Monday, October 31st, 2005|
|worst halloween ever.
back home... at least i did get to see mary ann tonight. i felt bad unloading on her but it felt good to cry. i havn't *talked* to anyone in so long.
my brother person & his girlfriend are having a party upstairs. once my dad goes to bed i'm gonna watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.
today sucked. i hope everyone else had a better day than i did.
boo. Current Mood: disappointed
|Wednesday, October 26th, 2005|
|i've been feeling male.
if i had seed, i would spread it.
but i have no balls... so there's that.
but for now, off to bed. it's been a busy, hormonal, sleep lacking couple of days. Current Mood: mischievous
|Thursday, October 13th, 2005|
||alyson took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!|
"Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable ..."
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i think that's pretty damn accurate right about now.
i'm also poting the following because i've been meaning to write about this here, but don't want to bother retyping everything. so i'm posting this tht i posted in myspace blog a lilwhile back:
so, it started out as a joke, me thinking "i wanna move somewhere far far away. caliifornia, or chicago, or montreal. when philly was mentioned to me though it got me thinking.
philly is an artsy place that would have a much larger theater community, and much larger opportunity to actually do some acting. i really feel like there is nothing here for me as far as my chosen career is concerned. CT is no theater place, virtually everything is done by professional touring companies, is way far away, or they need good dancers, and i can't follow choreography for shit.
philly also has a big goth/industrial scene. i always hear great things about the clubs, and i really feel like that's a good sign of good people. people actually having fun, not griping about being there. i want to enjoy going out again. i don't think i'll go out all the time or anything, but i want the ability to go out and have a good time around good people. i already know a few people in the philly area, so i wouldn't be going there w/o knowing *anyone*. i'd have someone to ask "where's the stop & shop?" and someone to hang out w/ sometimes and possibly meet a few people through.
i increasingly feel like an adult trapped in a kids world. i need to be out on my own, responsible for myself. taking care of myself. having my own space. having my own world under my own control. i want a place to call home that feels like it is *my* home. i don't want to feel like i'm living under someone else's roof, litterally and figurativly. i want to be able to stay home for an evening and not feel like i'm trespassing in my parents house.
part of me still says "fuck it, go to NYC" but i think philly is a place where i could live fairly cheaply (for less than 600 bucks a month), save money, have a life, and feel comfortable. i think i would have far more acting opportunities, and i would be a much happier, saner person in my own place. this wouldn't be for a couple of months, i need to make sure i have enough $$$ for a security deposit, a few months rent and some extra for living expenses before i have a job. but i'm a good waitress, i don't think it'd be long before i have something-at least to pay the bills. i don't know if this is gonna hapen, but i've been thinking about it more and more. seems like it could be the change i need to get my life where i need it to be.
but right now i'm stoked. I'M GOING TO CIRQUE DU SOLEIL TONIGHT!!!! woot!!!! Current Mood: excited
|Monday, October 10th, 2005|
if i were someone else i'd laugh at me.
i should probably start making my halloween costume but i'm completely unmotivated. i don't even know if i'm going anywhere or doing anything for halloween.
i wish my voice would come back.
i'm freezing. Current Mood: lonely
|Saturday, October 8th, 2005|
i sang 'out tonight' from rent at the kereoke bar tonight. :) yay! Current Mood: mimilicious
|Wednesday, October 5th, 2005|
so after just paying a 66 dollar ticket for parking on the street i live on, this morning i wake up to my dad telling me that if i parked on the street i got towed. then sara tells me it cost dave (who also got towed) 97 bucks. FUCK!!! i hate fucking living here. being sick and being in the house has been so akward. sue acts like a bitch constantly. she's automatically quiet and unhappy if i'm around... and now this. hello?? i'm trying to save money!! not get ripped off for living in a place i can't stand. especially since every time i park in the driveway someone gets pissed off about it (and by someone, yes, i mean sue). argh.
i wanted to do a big update about everything, but i'm too mad so here's the short version:
found a kereoke place w/ a huge and awesome collection of songs, including songs from rent! rock!!
still the only people who hit on me aren't people i want to do so. it's depressing. (i wish i could find someone to crush on at the very least, for i need snuggles!)
i got a pea coat for 15 bucks!
beth and i started a "numetal" band called 'thanks bitch!' our first song is called 'explosion in the first stall'
saw 'a history of violence' after listening to a david cronenburg interview on NPR.
if i can find someone to work for me I'M GOING TO CIRQUE DU SOLIEL OCT 13TH, A THURSDAY!!!!!!
pants... i wish i could stop coughing. Current Mood: pissed off
|Sunday, September 25th, 2005|
Leave me a comment . . .
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3)i'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
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5)I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6)I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
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8)Then when i answer you put it in your journal, too.
i woke up today to sue knocking on my door. the shower (i even forget what shower, bridal? baby? whose?) was going on and people had been there for an hour.
thanks for getting me up beforehand. if i was gonna be there, that would have been the thing to do. i completely forgot it was today. so i didn't get up, still havn't left the room, not going to til i have to pee etc. and leave. i don't like family functions, i was not awakened in time to deal w/ people before their "sleepyhead" jokes. i do't like having to act like i know and enjoy people i barely know because they happen to be related (and technically they're not related since they're sue's fam). i hate the whole idea of forced familial obligation.
a lot of times i feel bad about this because i know my family doesn't feel the same way. and i know that my not being gung-ho about this kind of thing probably makes them think i don't like/care for them. it's notthat i feel that way, it's that i don't know them, i feel uncomfortable around them, and even if i spent time w/ them how are we going to get to know eachother? by talking about the weather and how fun it is to make blueberry muffins?
i don't talk to a lot of people, basically my entire family almost ever, including the people in my house. i feel guilty about it, but i've always felt this way, and i don't mean to offend or hurt anyone.
yea, when i'm old i'm gonna be alone in a nursing home w/ no one to visit me... Current Mood: sore
|Saturday, September 24th, 2005|
tonight was kind of a downer, i feel like the past couple nights have been... except wednesday, cuz i was too stoked about my battoo to be down at all. i think i'm gonna stay in more. most of the time i end up driving a lot to do basically nothing. i'm gonna save my pennies, and move out and feel better about everythng. i need to meet new people, do new things, see new sights. that whole deal. i'm so sick of everything right now.
in other news. someone buy me these: Current Mood: antisocial and alone
|Friday, September 23rd, 2005|
|PLEASE READ!!!! HELP NEEDED!!!
so my kitten vomit needs a place to stay for a month or 2. she's currentlyat syska's place, but they can't keep her. my dad won't let me have her at my house either. i love vomit sooo much, she's precious, playful, sweet, used to beig around other people and animals, and it would only be temporary. i would pay for littler, food, and give you some cash for keeping her safe, and keeping her mine.
IF THERE IS ANY WAY YOU KNOW YOU CAN HELP, OR KNOW SOMEONE WONDERFUL WHO CAN, PLEASE LET ME KNOW ASAP!!!!
~thank you a majillion times in advance. Current Mood: hopeful
|Thursday, September 22nd, 2005|
|Monday, September 19th, 2005|
|cirque du soliel
i really want to see cirque du soliel this year. they were in hartford last year and i regret missing it. 'verakai' is the show going on this year, and it's running september 22nd-october 16th.
anyone willing to go? it's 70 bucks for semi decent seats, so it's pricey, but i sooooo want to go. wanna join? let me know a.s.a.p. Current Mood: hopeful
|Saturday, September 17th, 2005|